Nope Sorry

I really hated it, that person today.
You just blew your chance sis, I'm sorry sorry sister.
You asked for my forgiveness, I'm sorry I can't.
It hurts way too deep.

dang you really upset me

Sorry for no posting for quite a long time!
I just needed someplace where I could pour out my feelings, and right now I'm really upset with somebody. And yes, it's that person!
AA she's really killing me! I hate her, she is really arrogant and can't put herself in the right place at the right time. Hellooo?? Are you mad woman ?? URgh I had enough of you. That's it!

Very touching :')

Monday, February 1st 2010.

Maybe this is the first time I've ever cried sadly and then happily for a friend. No, a best friend :) The problem started out with her calling me ,well "geblek". Okay, maybe it's not a big deal for you folks who are watching this, but for me, it means a lot. If I were talked that way, I could imagine that I'm really stupid and useless towards people. "If you were talked that way by the the person you cherish, how would you feel?" that's what I thought. Especially if they're using much more violent words, such as "mati aja lu". Oh man, do you really want me to die? I know they're just joking , but I'm damn too sensitive about words, that's why I always try to pick the right words and try to avoid those kind of harsh words.
Well, I wrote what I thought as my personal message in MSN, and she read it. So she asked me what does that PM mean? And so I explained to her about my feelings and my opinion towards those problems. I didn't expect myself to actually cry over things like this, because I just wanted to tell her about how I feel, and she said sorry. By the time I read her message, tears actually dropped off from my eyes. I couldn't believe it myself. Hahahaa but I really felt happy she said that.
To tere: If you're reading this, I just want to say to you : I love you dear :)
(I"m sorry,can I copy the conversations we had? I'll save it in my archive because I want to hold this dearly, so I can be happy if I have forgotten about this )

Boys Before Flowers : Finished :)

I just finished watching Boys Before Flowers yesterday, and dang it was really a nice drama. I cried at times, and some of the episodes were really funny I laughed out loud. ^^ Such pity now it had ended, I don't have any good and great dramas to watch :'(

I'm back baby!

Wan sang ni men!
Xin nian kuai le!
Hahaha I just got back from Singapore..
And I brought back some present for myself. Dad gave each me and sis 150 Singaporean dollars, and I ended up spending all of 'em. These are what I bought while I was there:

1.  A Pull and Bear sneakers! I've been wanting them since a long time ago! Finally, I got them for 39,90 dollars. It is much cheaper than the ones in Indonesia. I could only bought one though :'(
2. A pair of high heels I bought at Bugis Junction. It's blue, and I just loved it. It's pretty cheap I guess.
3. Another pair of shoes, but flat ones. I bought them at Tangs. I forgot which Tangs though.
4. Three rolls of chinese paintings. 3 for 10,00 dollars. So-so lah ( hehe in Singapore languange)
5. I had my name painted beautifully with drawings with each alphabet was drawn into pictures, and each drawings have meanings, such as birds symbolizes happiness and etc. Loved it. It was 18,00 dollars. Pretty expensive,, but dad said that the expensive one wasn't the price, it was the art that was expensive Well, I gotta agree though, it's beautiful and I loved it.
6. Some keychains for souvenirs for my friends, and I bought Mars chocholate especially for my BF ^^ Hope she'll like them.
   

And the things I couldn't but there are:

1. Shorts nor Clothes. I bought none. The reason is: yes, I'm too fat dang it. I guess I'll need to shape up before I'll buy any of them. :'(
2. Adidas sneakers. Boohoo and it was so cute too. It had stars design on its surface. but it cost 85,00 dollars. Too expensive man! I think it was called Honey..something, I can't remember clearly.
3. And I guess I was hoping I could buy a pair of Charles & Keith high heels. I liked the ones that my sister bought . Sadly, her feet size is 37/38, while I'm a 39. So, I can't fit those shoes. And I don't have enough money anymore.
4. Maybe some souvenirs at Chinatown, like the ones that has magnet so it can stick to the refrigerator, or some clothes that look like yukatas. If only I have more money. *sigh

Forget about them. Let's just talk about what did I experienced there :D Here I go :

1. I stayed in an apartment. Of course you'll feel different compared to home, the apartment is much much smaller. But it's comfy and I pretty much like it :D
2. The MRT there. Wow, it's so much fun since it's the first time I've ever experienced MRTs. 
3. The people there are well organized. And I'm pretty surprised some of them can speak English quite well. Except the people that were selling soya milk. It's really hard to ask them to buy the cold soyas rather than the hot ones! I said "Cold!Cold!" and they answered things I couldn't understand. Hanya..
4. Coffee near the apartment! It's really delicious. It's sweet because it's a coffee-and-milk. And it only costs 90 cents. Lovely.
5. Another thing. The bread store near the coffee shop. The name's Bunnies. I really love that store! The bread they make are always new and the taste..delicious. Very,very lovely.
6. You really need to walk all the way in Singapore. Different from Jakarta, most people there don't use cars or vehicles-they walk and use public transportation. Although I was exhausted from all those walking, I love this idea. You can eat much and walk a lot, so you can still get in shape, different from here, if you eat much, you won't be able to walk much-making you turn fat. A big no-no.
7. Spending new years there. I saw the fireworks. And it was so much fun. we got into the place-I forgot the name- at approx. 10 p.m. (or was it at 9 I forgot)-waiting for 3 hours until 12 o'clock. It took so much time waiting, but it really paid off, the fireworks there were awesome! They were so beautiful. Loved it!!

Well, I think that's all. Hope this years' long holiday my family and I can go to a trip to Japan! Yokoso Japan!
Hihihi.
Byee! And Happy New Year!

It's late..but..better be soon or later you'll forget right?

Haahha yes, I decided to post some more just before I went to a trip with my family to Singapore woohoo.
Okay, so here's the recent happenings:

First, my grade report. Well, I assumed it would be much worse, but it turned out pretty well. Except for Maths ad Physics, I got 78. Not too good if want to graduate happily..boohoo. Well, at least, no red marks. And so I can enjoy this holiday without any worries!

Second, two days ago, it was soo much fun. Since I had nothing better to do, I ended up going out to mall with Mom and Sis, while Dad needed to go to work :( . We went there because of my sister needs, she wants to meet her friends from high school again. So, me and Mom, decided that we were going to watch a movie, Alvin and The Chipmunks 2 Movie. Yeeaay! It turned out really funny, both of us loved it. And I also bought myself a nail  polish, it has starry embroidery, I love it so much. That's why I'm using it right now. hihihi. First I polished my nails using red colors that my sister has, and then polish the second layer with this starry  one, and to top it up with the transparent color to cover so the stars couldn't.t pop out hehe.

And third, I am just a day off from my trip to Singapore. I already pack my things. The only thing I will need to remember is to bring my phone and Ipod's charger so I can charge at the apartment. And I'm just slightly killing time, waiting my Super Junior's download to finsih in 19 more minutes..Dang, ain't that lon. Well, since I am just sleepy, let's just end this post, kay? I'll just be visiting others' blogs because in boredom. See ya!
And Merry Christmas!

Late. but better post this before I forgot :D

well.. I really wanted to post this a long time ago,,even since the posting about Tina's birthday. But, yeah. all tose preparations for the exams. and me getting sick already take some time. So now that I already have some time :), I'll just blog about the recent happenings since November.

First, abot dad. I didn't actually remember the date how it happened, but after I finished from school, I got into the car, hoping I could get home-as usual. But nooo,, dad was also in the car. I thoght, " What the...?" and asked what's going on to him. He said he's going to a place named WannaB. I said, Huh? Are you kidding?", of course, any one who heard that out of nowhere will also think the same thinh-that he's just bluffing. But, the more we went farther away from home,or the places I was accustomed to, the more I think that he's not joking. And then, there we are. A weird looking building, like a flamboyant-look. And then he said that he wanted to did a karaoke in a special room and special equipments-a thing that he always longed for. I couldn't believe what was happening, but it did. So in the end I accompanied  Dad to sang heart-fully, and with the help of me, signaling when to stop or when it ends , or whatever. It turned out pretty good, actually, and I pretty much liked it. After that, I got outside the room, and saw a woman there. It turned out that she was waiting for her daughter singing inside another room. I also listened to her, she has a great voice. If I remembered correctly, she's an university student, and has been taking singing lessons. I hope she can debut soon :)

Second,, about my Mom's birthday! Yeay ! (God it's sooo last month, really her birthday was on 23 November) I really forgotten what happened though, all I remembered was that we bought a Strawberry Cheesecake from Harvest, a full circle one.. and it's absolutelly delicious!

And third, my Grandpa's Birhday :). We celebrated it at Angke, and gathered (almost) all family members from mom's side. And they even reserved a special room where we can have a karaoke! the food was really delicious, and I even sang some songs ohohohoho. It was really  super fun!

well, that's about it. I'm gonna eat my cereal now, and mom's waiting downstairs, so I need to hurry. Bye!

(Note: I've been having a fever for the past two days, and today I didn't come to school due to my illness ) Sad yet somehow happy ohohoho~

In A Hurry

for Selestina Maria:

to my friend by bernadetlucius on Polyvore.com

 Happy Birthday dear!

Just go away!

Sorry for posting too many grudge-looking posts, it's just..too many things happened. One of those are the test that my mandarin teacher gave me. Well,okay I know I did many mistakes on one part of the test. The other part, which is making an essay is just crap. Hello? She only teaches the class little vocabularies-while you're asking me to make a super long essay? In my opinion, you're just S-T-U-P-I-D. I already tried to ask why my points are so damn low-and you said it's because I didn't write as long as the others. Gosh, you really need to change your pair of glasses old lady. The meaning that counts, not how many spaces I took to write the essays! I wrote EVERYTHING that you taught me! It's just the same as what the others wrote! It's just that I wrote the characters too small so it looked as if I wrote very little explanation. Giving people marks by how many spaces they used to write an essay just because they wrote it big and wide-that's just low man. LOW. L-O-W.
Dang, because  of you I'm hating zhong wen also.
Wish the teacher teaching my class is my course teacher, he's much much better than you are. XP

I've done it again

Actually I'm using my old picture hahahaha
hey wait..where did Jay Chou go? XP

urgh!

Gosh you sure are pissing me off.
I tried to say sorry.
I tried to change the way I am.
But you kept "avoiding" me.
Fine. If that's the way you want it to be, so be it.
I wouldn't care a heck of you anymore.
Things change. You can't change that.
Damn! I can't believe now you are THIS annoying.
You wished that I wouldn't change, so tried to change back the way I was.
And now,....pfft. Don't make me laugh.
Now YOU'RE the reason I'm changing even further.
I'm strarting to get sick of you.

Films

During the holidays, I watched some films to let go of my boredom.
I watched Transformers, which was awesomely really cool. It was a great film hehe..
And also watched Street Fighter : The Legend of Chun-Li, but I don't really like it. It turned out to be a dissapointment to me, sorry, but was expecting that there would be many fights, and many characters in Street Fighter game would show up, making that really fun, like in DoA.. huhuu
And.. last but not least, I watched Hannah Montana: The Movie! Yeay me! ...Okay, maybe I look like a freak right now but, I like this film, I do. I really like the songs that were in the movie, especially The Climb.. wow. I know I already heard it at home, but, it felt really dramatic when Miley sang it and I watched it in the cinema.. Haha I almost cried you know. But film is full of comedy,, I laughed so hard so many times. And Jackson was really funny hahahaa. He's my favourite character in Hannah Montana because he's really funny. Two tumbs up!
I also watched the TV shows on Youtube. I laughed most of the time :D :D
I really recommend it!

Woohoo!

Hi again!
Waw.. just experienced one of my happiest times in life..Good times, good times..
Hehehe,, I just celebrated my birthday today! Yay me!
Got many congrats from my friends..
During midnight, I received messages from tere, momon, and isil. And from te morning until this evening, I also received text messages from nia,jessie,katya,vivi,gracia,bacap,rena,kak felia,angkie, and oliverose, hehe thanks guys.
I also got congrats from my friends in facebook.. woow so many of 'em.. Hehe I have to say my greatest thanks to you guys too.. :D :D :D
Well, about the birthday cake,, weeell, this time I didn't bought a full cake, just bought four slices,and to tell you the truth I was pretty sad. But hey, look on the bright side. it was cheaper, aaand I wouldn't get fatter that way hihi..
And in the morning I got reaaally tired and llazy,, so after eating the noodles, I slept.again. Woke up at 11 past 3o I think,,
I didn't want to go anywhere, so I ended up playing PS2,,haha some fighting like Digimon and DDR.. What..? Don't ask why.. I was bored anyway,and I already finished my Devil Summoner 2 : Raidou Kuzunoha vs King Abaddon days ago..
Then, I went to pick up Dad and then went to grab something to eat.. And we ate at Spageddies.. yum,, I really wanted to eat Italian pasta or spaghetties, just don't know why.. and wow it was reaally delicious,,
Then wow I ate Cream & Fudge's Chocolate Lover... super!
Heheh I'm feeling really happy right now!
Btw, I really love my family and my friends too! :D

whoa.. I think I just hit my puberty

Well..thats how I think.
I'm just killing time right now because I can't play video games or even watch Disney Channel , although I reeeaally want to watch Cory in The House, Wizards of the Waverly Place, or even That's So Raven. but. I. couldn't.

I think I just got my puberty. Actually, not in the physical part, but the emotional part. Hard to admit this, but I think I just got a bit girly. (Somehow I don't like the word girly)
I dunno, somehow or another I just started wanting to have clothes, but not shirts.
I want to try on some clothes at Seibu, in which, usually, I would never go to try any clothes.

Even, usually, at Mangga Dua, I would go out with my dad to look for games, fils, and electronic stuffs, while my sister and mom would go out to look for some clothes. Not really my thing.

Well. I just bought a tanktop and a sleeveless shirt.. But when I just want to try a one-piece dress (at that time I didn't have any intentio of buying the dress), I liked it, really I did. It was a purple dress, pretty simple actually, which has beads in the left part as an acssesory, I think.
I do think that it's really cute, but considering the price, it breaks my heart.
It was also because I already bought the sleeveless shirt in which it was pretty expensive for that.

I asked dad and a no.
I asked mom and still no.
Maybe, I could ask my grandma, teehee.
But, I don't think that would please my parents, and I would feel guilty for my grandparents.
I do wish I can go and get a part time to earn money, like in Japan, even as a dishwasher, it is a really promising salary..

Didn't expect to be this sad

I thought I wouldn't cry
I thought I was inhuman because of it
But then
I cried
It hurts
It's painful
to see you go away
Even though we're not so close anymore
I still remember
In this heart of mine
How good friends we were
Although not too close
But to see you go
My heart aches
It still hurts
I just wish
Someday, somewhere
We can meet again
Just to talk and spend time together
They way we used to

Wow.

You are The High Priestess

Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.

The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.

While just waiting for my download to finish, let's just do some posting ^^
But what should I post about..
Hmm..
How about the thing I'm downloading? Okay.
Well, right now I'm downloading Japanese songs. As you can see, I pretty much like them, but also like some American from the States, even some foreign songs I don't even know the meaning of the songs, such as The Bloomfields' "Ale" or even Thalia's "Marimar".. Hehehe.. I listened them from Youtube, by watching Moymoy Palaboy. Speaking of Moymoy Palaboy, I wonder if they had already post some new funny videos. Every time I watch them,I think I laughed my head out. lol.
Oh yeah back to main topic. I'm downloading Nishino Kana feat. WISE's "Tokutemo" (Even If It's Far). I think the songs really nice. Hehe.. I knew that song from watching the video in a taxi.
Since bww2 was unable to be accessed, I looked up some sites in Google that can safely download songs since there's so many viruses here and everywhere. I don't wanna have my computer to experience the same painful experience it had back then (Note: ordeal = painful experience lol --> knew it from English class at school, and I got 58 at the test dang it) - -"
hehehe.. now I know where to download songs other from bww2.com (although now it's active again). The site is www.getasianmusic.com. It some kind of forum where you can you share some songs. But to download the song, you need to sign up and submit a comment. Not too hard, I guess. Personally, it's really satisfying, I would highly recommend it :D
Oh my, still 26 minutes.. what ever should I do? (*slap myself okay this is stupid). Well, I guess I'll go visit mangafox and Youtube to see if Moymoy Palaboy had post anything new.
So, toodles!

Horray..
After some time waiting for new good video games, I finally got my hands on "Devil Summoner 2 : Raidou Kuzunoha vs King Abaddon". Yippie! It's made by Atlus, so I don't really doubt the quality.. remembering how fun Persona 3 and also 4 are :D
And, I'm right! It's really fun. Hahaha :D

Cover



What's this..? Looks cool :D
Sadly can't read Japanese.

I really like how the game is. They force us to think, and it's a detective-like and of course, RPG. Wohooo! I felt really dumb because I didn't know how to capture those luck locusts.. I thought that you need to press a specific key to generate the action. Turns out, you REALLY only need to choose to do the action y selecting Items-Birdlime. Duh.. I feel rather stupid if you asked me.. - -"

Ooh.. the fun! :D

Anyway,, I hadn't been posting for a long time, so I'm gonna tell you how my experience as a worker at a supermarket. The name of the supermarket is HERO. Yes HERO. Turns out it was pretty much fun. I thought it wasn't too musch fun. I really like to work in the Grocery and Produce section. In grocery, I really like to tidy up the items that are shown in the gondolas. And as for in the Produce secton, I really like wrapping up the fruits and vegetables, NOT to forget, to give price labels to them! Hohoho,, the fun! And maybe also to tie the bananas, it was pretty fun tieing them hehee..
Well, that's it. :D
Checking out..

"Don't tell me to get a life. I'm a gamer. I've got tons of lives."
Read this from gamespot.com but I forgot who wrote this. I thinks it's really cool !

In full colours..?

haa..
darn it..
I just finished my school exams.. and...no good.
I don't think I can even pass to the 2nd year with this kind of grades..
AAAARGGGHH
darn it darn it..
I wished time could make me go back so I will be able to do the test better..
Speaking of which, I'm also nervous to death about how my "audition" to get an AFS scholarship..
hiiy.. I didn't do my test very well, - -""
Let's just hope for the best, for my school exam report AND the AFS "audition'..

- -"'

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