Monday, February 1st 2010.
Maybe this is the first time I've ever cried sadly and then happily for a friend. No, a best friend :) The problem started out with her calling me ,well "geblek". Okay, maybe it's not a big deal for you folks who are watching this, but for me, it means a lot. If I were talked that way, I could imagine that I'm really stupid and useless towards people. "If you were talked that way by the the person you cherish, how would you feel?" that's what I thought. Especially if they're using much more violent words, such as "mati aja lu". Oh man, do you really want me to die? I know they're just joking , but I'm damn too sensitive about words, that's why I always try to pick the right words and try to avoid those kind of harsh words.
Well, I wrote what I thought as my personal message in MSN, and she read it. So she asked me what does that PM mean? And so I explained to her about my feelings and my opinion towards those problems. I didn't expect myself to actually cry over things like this, because I just wanted to tell her about how I feel, and she said sorry. By the time I read her message, tears actually dropped off from my eyes. I couldn't believe it myself. Hahahaa but I really felt happy she said that.
To tere: If you're reading this, I just want to say to you : I love you dear :)
(I"m sorry,can I copy the conversations we had? I'll save it in my archive because I want to hold this dearly, so I can be happy if I have forgotten about this )